The first was when I was 12 years old and my dad died. I was still very young but still realized everything that was happening and could understand it to a point. I didn't realize it then (not until I had kids) that you can't take advantage of anything. Enjoy all the little things in life from seeing your kids first discovery of grass, to that first lost tooth, just enjoying the cuddles in the middle of the day.
The second time was in 2014 when I saw a facebook post about a friend I knew since brownies that she was in hospital and had a cardiac arrest and the Dr.'s don't know why (She was only 36 years old). It's been a long time since I talked to her but my heart was breaking for her and her family. She has since pulled through and her inspirational posts have put me in absolute awe every time I read her beautiful words! I started worrying about my own family to the point that I am pretty sure I became slightly depressed (to be honest I think I was already from having the twins). My worry turned into hating myself for becoming who I was and eating to make me feel better but turned out that I hated myself even more.
The final time was a few weeks ago when we got a call from my husband's mother saying that his dad had a minor TIA. I realized ( although I knew all along) that your health is everything! I f you don't take care of yourself your loved ones around you ultimately suffer when you are gone and there is nothing you can do about it. With that said I am finally taking my life into my own hands! I have started working out 5 days a week and am tracking what I am eating! I didn't put this weight on over night and I don't expect it to come off over night!
So far after 2 weeks of a 4 week program I have lost a total of 6 lbs and 7.5 inches (all over but my happiest is 3 inches off the hips). It has been hard work and there are days when I really don't want to work out, but I keep repeating to myself that I want to grow old with my husband and I want to be there for all of my kids and family's moments from the smallest to the largest and most important. I don't want to be a burden to my family and I want to be there in every way possible!
I never keep New Years Resolutions so I am declaring that this is a New Perspective on Life! I know that this is going to be a long road but one that I am more than willing and ready to take